And of course I was all over the place with memories. Three computers worth of writing and data, journal among journal, my phone applications were all filled with memoires, reminders, and discoveries. And so I quit trying to organize and edit. I was watching movies 24/ 7 in my head and never once thought about trying to slow it down. I simply had to let it be. If I let anything distract me from this movie again, God might press pause again. And I simply didn’t like staring at a blank screen for five years.