This would be the packing and planning phase. My brain is the suitcase which had I had already started packing years ago. And then it just hit me one day out of nowhere. I was me again. But I was a different me a better me. I was simply overwhelmed with every emotion. “I felt clear” That is actually the word I used which I now can replace with transparent. There I was in my room maybe cleaning or just stopping in to grab something and run an errand. I can’t remember anything more that peace. I guess I consider “I felt clear” the day I really woke up.